Frost At Midnite

There are a lot of places where we read about butterflies in the stomach, feeling faint, weak in the knees, heart beating faster or slower, gasping for breath… feels like someone is stealing away your breadth…, and then there is the eternal… you cant stop thinking about it thing, nightmares or sweet dreams taking away your sleep, you wait for that one thing desperately, that searching look, the physical ache…, all written in respect to describing the symptoms of love.

Come to think of it, I have the same odd feelings. Butterflies fluttering in my stomach, that odd feeling in my abdomen, thinking makes me week kneed, an inability to think of something other than this, everything seemingly annoying, a varying heart beat, wanting to breathe but then an obvious lack of oxygen on earth makes it difficult, a serious lack of appetite and an even more lack of sleep, the pain and yearning… Arghhhh!!!!!!

Just the thought of all this makes me sick in the stomach. Any one with a mushy heart and feather brain would confirm it to be love, but in my case its just a complicated illness!

Out of sheer disinterest in tablets and tonics and saturated with bearing pain, I do so hope that it would be love… probably a sheer case of the grass is always greener on the other side.

It has been a really long time! Almost a month since I fell sick and my fourth week away from work. All this while sitting at home and just about doing everything to crib and cringe.

And then dad decides to take me out during the day. When I say that it means an outing to office/bank/some place official! This time it was to the bank. The trip was as usual. I do not like meeting people who deal with money… especially my money.

As much as I love Chennai, I never realized it has changed a lot… over the past year and a half! I never realized Chennai was green! Or even noticed how music academy was shaped. This time around when I went out, I noticed there were no hoardings… none at all. I remember when a friend, Mary, had come visiting from the UK. She was in love with India and Indian men. That was the time when John Abraham was on every other hoarding. Take the T-Nagar route or Mt. Road, all you get to see on either side were hoardings… of movies, watches, bikes, papers, saris, etc. and they were incredibly beautiful. Imagine almost 35 feet wide hoardings of Jothika, in three different saris for RMKV, just opposite to Valuvar kottam. You will be at the signal anywhere between 30 sec to three minutes and I remember seeing Jothika to the left and a Tanishq ad to the right. This time around, it was just space… blue sky, white puffy clouds and a dash of green! Clean up Chennai was taken to the literal sense! Mount road is almost barren… the exit curve from Anna flyover leading to Nungambakkam is open… and you can see the new horticultural gardens coming up! (This place housed the famous Drive-in, which the govt. shutdown… I not like the move! I‘ve known the place since I was in Chennai as a kid. They even had a children’s park with a white horse… a real one which you could ride! Infact, a lot of my friends talk about how drive-in played an important role in sculpting our personality!)

If I felt weird with just no hoardings around… there are a lot of flyovers everywhere! And I don’t know my routes now. I knew how to get to one place from another and all the gullies and lanes but now I am lost! I mean, Chennai is not really the best planned city, but there are a lot of small lanes which you can take to not go through the painful one-ways. I can’t really complain about Chennai’s traffic either after living in Hyderabad for almost two years. But the flyovers are crazy. There are many types of them I was told. You enter one, and decide which way you need to go… and ten minutes later, you exit the flyover to your destination. While it would have taken some 25 minutes otherwise! And there are expressways for the buses! Chennai is getting posher by the day!(think after the one in T-nagar is complete, I enter flyover from near my house, and I can land up on the main road, ten feet from Lachu’s house!) I remember moving to Hyderabad in dec’06 and there was a bridge under construction. I happen to travel through the same area again, and its still under construction. But here… I never knew that there was such a thing happening and it feels like it popped up from the earth… And I happen to visit Chennai every month! My love for this city has nothing but increased!

i couldn help but be amazed!

http://illseed.wordpress.com/2008/05/05/man-rapes-woman-over-the-phone/

Defies all laws of science  I know of.. interestingly dumb!

Its been two months since Jammy tagged me on this.. and here goes…

Eight things I am passionate about
I Love Thinking, reading, photography, football, my family and friends, music, traveling, writing.
Eight things that attracts me to my best friends
Ahem ahem… considering that I have a tiny bunch of “friends till death” I think it should be:

Fun, intelligence, passion, grounded, sensible, loyal, talkative, and a patient listener. A lot can become with these characteristics.

Otherwise.. think one common characteristic is that we are all rich spoilt brats!

Eight books I’ve read recently

I don’t remember them… currently reading RK Narayan and PG wodehouse.
Eight things I say often
I say a lot of things very often.. primarily.. :), hmmmm, its not like that, damn it,.. hmmmm… ok, hmmmmm, *raise my eyebrows*… basically I am not a person good with my words.
Eight things I want to do before I die (In no particular order)

I would like to die rich.. give away a lot to a lot of people. Send my parents away on a worlds tour, give my sister whatever she asks for ( I normally do.. but I think she has a lot more wishes to come true!), read up all the books I want to read, publish my books.. I have a lot here.. and it gets depressing writing all of them here for the world to see.

Eight songs I could listen to, over and over

Hahaha.. there cant just be 8.. if it were I would kill myself.

Eight people I think should do this tag (I have seven)

*I think*… hmmmm.. that’s a clause there..and right now I don’t think anyone should…

Last movie seen in a theatre?

Its been so long that I really can’t remember!

What book are you reading?

Currently RK Narayan’s collection of short stories and a PG wodehouse.

Favourite board game(s)?

Scrabble , Monopoly and chess.

Favourite magazine?

The Economist, Reader’s Digest, Competition success.

Favourite smells?

Coffee, The smell of wet earth after the rains, the smell of my grandma’s home… The smell of water.. fresh water in God’s own country.

Favourite sound?

Water.. inspiring stuff.. bubbles, boils, ripples, downpours.. you can spend hours lost in transition with it.

Worst feeling in the world?

Currently sick, and having gone through a lot of weird illness, I think the worst is when you are sick and you have to experience it.. unlike when u have a fever and u sleep.. or are unconscious.

What Is The First Thing You Think Of When You Wake?

What time is it!

Favorite fast food place?

Hotel Safari… not really fast food.. but they really serve food fast. Best biriyani and butter chicken… I like!

Future child’s name?

I am not a “Child” person.. don’t really like the tiny people.. and therefore have not thought about things that concern me and them.

Finish this statement. “If I Had A Lot Of Money I’d…”

Travel, indulge with my camera.. a new lens and a screen, Contribute to conservation efforts.. If there is enough left for my parents, I’d give it to them and ask them to retire and have fun!

Do you drive fast?

Yes.. and therefore I am not allowed to drive!

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?

NO!

Storms - cool or scary?

Cool… Again the sound of water.. the rhythm.. the thunder.. a lot can be thought about during storms.. over a hot cuppa!

Do you eat the stems on Broccoli?

Yes.

If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?

I did once.. and it was called something in the brochures, I can only express the color as burgundy with copper reflect.

Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?

Chennai, Hyderabad, Cochin, Coimbatore, Kannur (Chirakkal, Thalassery)

Favourite sports to watch?

Football!!!!

One nice thing about the person who sent this to you -

Bharath… extremely grounded, and a nice photographer, can be inspiring to the beginners..

What’s under your bed?

Gift Wrappers.. I collect them and find my sheet holders full. The bed however keeps them crisp and stiff unlike the holder where I have to roll them up.

Would you like to be born as yourself again?

Definitely!

Morning person or night owl?

Night owl!

Over easy or sunny side up?

Sunny side up.

Favourite place to relax?

Home!

Favourite pie?

Not a pie person.

Favourite ice-cream flavour?

No ice cream for me!

You pass this tag to – Tealspace, Ivar and Prits Dreams

Of all the people you tagged this too, who’ll respond first?

Dunno!

Some random stuff that I keep thinking I will write about, but then it turns out to be a huge debate and a major overload on my brain.

Education/Literacy/civilised!

Ever wonder what the three have in common or how they are different? It is always observed when in the masses. There was a chance to notice the differences in abundance last week. You know when you talk to, let’s say chauffeurs, maids and people from the servicing sector, that they may not be the most brightest but they are quick learners.

It was extremely disheartening, that these people who probably haven’t even completed high school successfully talk in English and junta erupts laughing. Now that without a humorous context is rude! Considering that these people are ones who have probably studied in a non-English medium, haven’t even gone beyond high school, their grasp of the language is also expected to be poor. Actually, even my language has rotten, with every passing day since school! And expecting Shakespearean language of me is foolishness! So is grammatical correctness from them.

Now the people who laugh! God forgive me for all the abuse that I have rendered! But having graduated form colleges, and spoken English for ever, their English Sucks! They have this nauseating American accent, which I am sure induces nausea for the Americans as well. And grammar…. Americans kill the language and these people are the ones who feast on the leftovers! Like the vultures! Now its not something that you assume you are doing good with.. lets face it, its just bad English! And oh yeah… you carry with you a fake attitude, and display a complete lack of confidence when you use “ummm… so the thing is..ummm” Damn you.. I know there is a thing.. blah blah blah! Oh! then there is the grammar… apparently, the effect of the mother tongue!

I thought this would be a good example.

X: hey

Me: hi

X: everythin alright?

Me: yes.. all good. : )

X: if u say so!!!

And that left me with an expression that can’t be expressed with my meager vocabulary!

Many of you know how I try, well that’s the least feasible so far to get a good and decent admit into one of the ivy leagues b-schools in the country! Not the world; am content with my country, mostly because I am a nice big pauper.

Anyway, when I saw this video, it seemed very introspective and makes me realize how nice it has been going through those nearly futile and licentious attempts.

For those out there who want have/had taken up cat and will be taking it… this one is for all of you!!!

And as for me, well… sigh… Damn!!!!! Whenever the time is right! God bless.

(ironically a three minute video, its been three years since i gave cat!)

I also realise that I need to improvise on my blogging habit! more posts, possibly after the weekend. the only hassle being i am offline and cant access online dictionaries or wikipedia.

There are seldom things that I don’t care about (most of you know what are such things) the most important reason is that I am extremely to most sincerely dispassionate about them. In case a mild disinterest exists I can still tolerate and co-exist as in the case fellow human beings.

Things that I am passionate about, like making money, music, shoes etc I tend to improvise and want more. Get things to perfection. Make various different combinations and devise an integral multiple that would keep me happy for sometime at least. Thus, the continuous need for perfecting is what keeps me interest. The perfect shoe, the perfectly crisp crunch of currency! Sigh!!!!! A long wish list.

The perfect setting… the perfect thought… perfectly lined eyes… perfectly tuned strings… Sigh!!!!

And as the search for perfection continues… on the web, I encounter what I think would be a perfect high budget purchase! The kind that you don’t really need, but you still can do with it… the kind that would probably get you the next best shot in your portfolio.

EOS-1Ds Mark III with an EF 800mm f/5.6L IS USM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And that would make my worth lesser by a couple of hundred thousands lighter by dough. But then a good camera is always an investment!!! Nevertheless, there is always something better in the market!!! Damn, the chaos that happens when u decide to go shopping. For now, I shall not indulge, cos I don’t see a major use for these in the near future, unless I decide to quit my current job and join Animal Planet or NGC. : ) (I do wish they would reimburse me then! Lol ;))

And this is the real deal.. A sample foto with just the camera. no telephoto involved. Photo captured with a 10 sec lag and 100 ISO. f/4.6(I think) I didn’t note the specs when I saw the photo nightscene.jpg

alilbirdietoldme - a new blog which I started, a little contribution from my end to the other living beings with whom I share the planet with.

Now you may argue that I use leather products, follow a non-vegetarian diet and therefore should not write on the lines of animal rights activists or conservationists. But for those of you who haven’t figured out yet, they don’t poach chicken, they just breed them as poultry, Fish - it is an established eco system… well I really don’t have to justify it, but I can without guilt say, the only pair of leather boots I got, not bought, have been used only once nor the leather belts. And am not really into the feathers and furs too.

So what’s with blog you ask? alilbirdietoldme deals with my love for animals, something that I haven’t shown outwardly to a lot of people, but yes, I do love them. And for all of you, who think you can contribute to it, let me know, there is our little bit that we can do to make the world a better place for all of Us. Create awareness… something that every body talks about, but no one does.

Hmmmmm… on the other hand, its not just animals, everything living other than humans. I may shamelessly even “Steal” a few images off the web, but I intend to give due credit to the source.